Suddenly, I realized that I am now approaching my first anniversary. Its just like yesterday when I don't know how I will handle my current situation. But now, I'm getting back to normal though I know deep within me, it will never be back to normal. There are times that I fear death, but now there is an assurance than it will not be so soon as I am feeling better and better each day.
Of course theres a lot of struggles and adjustment on my body. I noticed few problems on my skin, very frequent pimples, with pimple-like spots on my legs and on my chest. But I believe this is just a minor problem for me to be pre-occupied with. At least I know that I am recovering from my early signs...and I am awaiting for the result of my first ever viral load count.
I am again into decorating my home which became a therapy for me. Unfortunately, the thoughts that someday ill be leaving the house still struck me. But I'm slowly assuring myself that I will be in a better place by then.
Still, no one knows my condition except for the three persons who are the closest to me. I wanted to reveal my condition to others but I don't have the guts and I don't think they are ready for it also. sometimes I'm thinking that its easier to broadcast it, to release my fears, but I know its not that easy.
So, happy anniversary to me. May God give me more anniversaries on the next years to come.
