I was so anxious, scared but excited as I open the mail. The mail was from my treatment hub. It was my first year of ARV treatment, and I had my VL count again...Remember that I had the undetected result on my sixth month. I have to know if the treatment is working for me. I have to get the undetected result again...
My hands are shaking as I opened the mail...and it says...undetectable...undetected again..wohhh. I almost cried in joy. I had two rounds already, which means my virus are now suppressed. Its sleeping to say the least.
I was so glad when I had my check up again. The doctor said I looked so fine, I said, I am. I feel so good, great actually. He was so happy, me too. It was a nice Christmas gift for me.
But then I'm hearing unsuccessful stories, most of them being late to diagnose and to seek treatment. The one who assisted me before was so sad since he was the one assisting them too. I said to him that even though he had few losses, he is so successful on me. He said, I made him feel better.
How I wish others will also have the courage to submit themselves, to know their status and to get treated as soon as possible. In my case, I chose to knew it right away, as not to be scared everyday and to worry. The situation of knowing that you already had it was quite scary and hard, but if I haven't had the courage, I might be dead, and I'm so serious.
I almost remember the day I had my test, I said, its now or never, if I will be positive, then I have to accept it and knew how will I spend the rest of my days, if negative, then take care of myself better. It was scary, to know the truth but even scarier not to know it at all. Now I'm a living proof that we can still live a normal life, that we shouldn't be scared...and we should fight, cause we still have the right to live.
