It was ended. After nine months of taking my anti TB meds, finally, im done with it. The first three months are so difficult, the next 6 months are so tiring. I just couldn't swallow the pill anymore. Sometimes, I am already choking with it. Those moments when I have to rush in any comfort room since I have to as a side effect of the meds, those moments that I have to pee cause it hurts not to answer the call of nature. But finally, im done. But im too scared.
Im so scared that I don't have anymore protection. That now my lungs is at its own already, without any support but my ARV. Right now I have to trust my meds, that it will protect me on the days to come. I want to be inspired by all those I knew, that up till now are surviving and living a happy and productive life. I want to pray for strength, for humility and for faith. Ive been through emotional pressure, and even spiritual too. Sometimes I forget to pray...and hoped that He will always be there for me. I have to pray more and trust more. But how can I, I am overshadowed by my weakness. And I know its not that good. I want to search for answers. I want to be better. I want to be good in His eyes.
God forgive me for I have continuously sin and forsaken you.
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