To reveal or not?

Lately, I was left in the house with my nephew. He was the one whom I sent to college school for his degree. I can say that probably, hes is my longest companion since he was with me since the day he was born. He never left my side. I was his guardian even up to this day.

He is a nursing student. Unfortunately he missed his nursing board exam so he was practicing a profession which is not exactly what he should be doing. But at least hes now employed, with a decent pay.

I don't know if he already knew my situation. Since my diagnosis, its only my sister, my brother and his wife who knew that im living a "positive life". They advice me not to tell to anyone. I rather not too also. But since this nephew of mine is just like my own son, I really wanted to tell him. But I was still scared. Scared that he might

Be lonely for me?

Hate me for being sick?

Turn his back on me...

All of those worries. And I myself still don't know how to handle again my emotions, I might not. I know the reality will linger on me again and I wont be able to hide my tears, and I don't want him to see me on my troublesome days. I don't want to give him problem. But I want him to know the truth.

Maybe later on, if im ready, and if he is too. There will always be the right time for everything. And I will hope for that perfect timing.