She said that every time the first drop of the chemo drug entered her body, she felt like giving up. The pain is so real and she cant bear it, she wanted to stop, but she wanted to live...
That's what she told me, my cousin who's been so dear to me was diagnosed with stage 2 colon cancer. She kept it as a secret to me, from almost everyone else, but I discovered it and forced her to tell the truth about her condition. I was sad upon learning. Me and my cousin are sick...
I wanted to tell her that im going through the same situation now, but I have a different case, she will be free from the sickness as long as shes taking her medicines and doctors advises faithfully. I am not. No matter how many capsules I will be taking, theres still no cure, but only suppression.
That night I pray to God, but my prayers are not for me, but for this cousin of mine. I pray that God overlooked me and took care of my cousin instead. I had received already a wonderful gift, the blessing of going through despite of my condition. It is but proper to pray for her instead rather my own desires. I got the best fair share of Gods love already. Its time to give others a chance to feel the Love of my God.
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