I need an assurance so I kept myself busy. I still go to work, be with my co workers, talking and smiling. But they sensed a feeling of difference on my everyday life, on how I act and the way i do. Im more timid and usually quiet which is very unusual to me. I search for answers about life, about death, about being positive, about faith, about hope, about anything that can help me go through. Internet became my friend, and those preachers became my advisers.
One day I typed HIV blogs, then I found this blog, the Project Red Ribbon. I read every post and seems a little hopeful afterwards. Then I find numbers of counselors which I bravely dial. After a few rings, a voice answered. He is Kuya Tom as what they called him. He asked me if I thought ill die soon. I said, yes!. He said, "gago" then he laugh. I laugh too for the first time. He asked me if I had undergone series of test. I said none. He said I should start my baseline test such as XRAYs and bloodchem. Then he told me to wait for my RITM confirmation and had him advised him the soonest as I got my result. That day, i found new hope. Theres this someone who will take care of me, on my journey, on how i will live my life.
From then on, Ive been constantly communicating with my blood brother. He is my confidant, I am saying everything to him, my doubts, my fears. He said im still lucky because I never gone through what he had gone. Im more healthy, than he was. He said I chose the right path, to knew my status early on. Everyday seems a little easier because of him. Hes like a brother to me.
In him I found my strength.
One day I typed HIV blogs, then I found this blog, the Project Red Ribbon. I read every post and seems a little hopeful afterwards. Then I find numbers of counselors which I bravely dial. After a few rings, a voice answered. He is Kuya Tom as what they called him. He asked me if I thought ill die soon. I said, yes!. He said, "gago" then he laugh. I laugh too for the first time. He asked me if I had undergone series of test. I said none. He said I should start my baseline test such as XRAYs and bloodchem. Then he told me to wait for my RITM confirmation and had him advised him the soonest as I got my result. That day, i found new hope. Theres this someone who will take care of me, on my journey, on how i will live my life.
From then on, Ive been constantly communicating with my blood brother. He is my confidant, I am saying everything to him, my doubts, my fears. He said im still lucky because I never gone through what he had gone. Im more healthy, than he was. He said I chose the right path, to knew my status early on. Everyday seems a little easier because of him. Hes like a brother to me.
In him I found my strength.
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